Tuesday, 24 July 2007


Well work have been great I, actually, was offered more time off than I requested and realistically I needed it. It has been a very strange and stressful couple of weeks. I don't think I've stood still until today.

Normally in such circumstances we skulk away and leave the police to do what they do. Now I know what a fantastic job that is done by these men and women. Thank you all.

Dealing with the estate is a nightmare all of its own. The Government are mercenary bastards when it comes to this, even clothing needs to be valued for Inheritance Tax purposes. The last thing you need to worry about at times like this are how much a few pairs of old shoes are worth.

Still this is the way of the world. Managed to get away for a few days. Fishing, which is the best thing for the sole, and a wee break with the old's. Today is the first day I've had to myself for two and a half weeks, which sounds and is good. The problem though is that I've cried more today than in the last 14.

Back to work tomorrow though and I hope the return to routine brings me back on track. I've been pretty good about everything so far. I know that you never get over the loss of a loved one - you just get use to living with it.

So, back to normal? There is a new "norm" to become accustomed to. Feels very strange suddenly being an only child. I miss my big sister.

P.S. Thanks to everyone for the support. It is not unnoticed nor unappreciated.


Anonymous said...

good to see you back on line.Look after yourself.

drunkenspaniel said...

Don't underestimate routine. Work and all its routines kept me sane when my life was falling apart at home, and none of my collegues ever guessed what was happening behind closed doors. It was my rock and I've always been grateful for it.

Take care, and remember we're thinking of you. xx

Anonymous said...

Beautiful picture.
I always think scenery and going back to nature is food for the soul and i hope it comforts you and yours.
Hope the new "normal" settles in soon Macbain
Take care X

uphilldowndale said...

Be kind to yourself, grief can jump out and go 'boo' when you least expect it. It can also be physically and mentally exhausting.
Go fishing as often as you can

Anonymous said...

sorry to hear mate. dig deep, people all around will need you more than you will ever know.

Anonymous said...

In case you still log on, just to say thinking about you and hope things are getting a bit easier or at least copeable with, (if there is such a word)

Trekkie said...

Just checking to see how you are.

Look after yourself.


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